On the right track...

One of the really shitty things about bulimia is that you get into mindsets about food and what you can and can't do. These mindsets are hightened and usually made worse when you're going through a rubbish times.

For instance, two weeks ago I was eating 1000 cals a day (purging once a day at most), heading to the gym every night, not snacking, feeling good!

Last week, which I will say was one of the worst weeks I've had depression-wise in a long time, I was eating cereal and bread and coffee with cereal bars. I'd feel guilty so I'd make myself puke. My stomach was empty so I felt I could eat again.
By doing this and with my terribly slow metabolism it's needless to say I gained a few. Although technically I gained 1lb -- looks wise? I could have gained about 7. My stomach was painfully bloated and my throat and teeth definately felt the strain.

So today after yet again feeling that agonising anger and disapointment in myself of the crap start to a new weekly of a fresh diet.

So tonight, Tuesday 10th February, I did the same 1 mile run 4 times. I've just checked it on mapmyrun.com and it's a tiny bit over 1 mile.

The first time I did it it was about 10 minutes 30 seconds. The third time I did it it 9 minutes 30 second. The fourth time I was too tired to complete it so I took a little shortcut and finished a tiny bit quicker but in a lot of pain haha.
I listened to a Scott Mills podcast throughout, mun. I proper love him doot.

So anyway, after my 4 miles of running I was definately in that mindset of "I've just worked out and really don't want to ruin my achievements by eating". So hopefully, if I keep running and working out, the mindset might stick. I hope anyway :)